Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Looming Vacation

So my mother and I will head out early Thursday morning on our way to Scottsdale, Arizona.  I'm very glad to have the break from work, but I'm having a hard time really getting excited about it.

All this fertility stuff keeps just stays at the forefron of my thoughts lately. I'm usually pretty good about stuffing it in it's own little compartment and thinking about it when it's convenient for me. But that doesn't seem to be working. Since my dose of met.phormin was upped in June I can tell my body has been ovulating on its own, but I can't seem to pinpoint when. I'm doing my best to take my temp every morning, but I tend to get high and low spikes all the time. My temp never seems to follow any kind of pattern.

See how wonky this is?  And our BDing isn't happening very frequently either so that doesn't help. I really think the dip I had this morning might be ovulation finally, but I really can't say for sure unless I get tender breasts. That is the only way I ever know if I O'd lately. But my back has been super painful for about 3-4 days like it sometimes does before my cycle starts so I'm hoping that means I'm about to ovulate.  It would suck if I ovulated while I'm on vacation since G won't be there with me. My cycle lengths are still not normal so it's all just a crapshoot.

It just feels like there is so much to do lately and just not enough time or enough of me to get it done. I'm sure part of it is just trying to get everything ready for vacation so hopefully when I get back it won't feel so stressful.

Work has been super busy the last few weeks so that piles on the stress too. We all know diva co-worker isn't going to help, but she's in for a rude awakening when I'm gone. Either she doesn't realize how busy it's been or she's just ignoring it like usual and not bothering to offer help anyone. I vote for the latter.  Either way, she's going to have to work while I'm gone. We'll see how much of a mess there is when I get back. I'm certainly not looking forward to that.

One good thing is that I started an online photography class this week by Karen Russell, Snapshots of a Good Life. I'm super excited to learn how to use my camera properly and up my skill level (which is currently at zero). I was hoping to get a regular seat, but since vacation is upon us it's probably a good thing I ended up with an auditing seat. That way if I'm unable to post an assignment it's ok.

Hopefully next time I check in I'll have some fabulous photos from Arizona to share.


Erika said...

Fellow Snapshots student here. Good luck on getting a baby in your belly. I remember using fertility friend when I was trying for my first. Sounds like you've been trying for a long time. I hope you are blessed with a little one soon!

Songcatcher Siren said...

Hey Sweetie, a couple of thoughts with respect to your chart...

I had REALLY erratic charts too that made no sense for almost a year and a half. Then I read that taking the temperature orally you HAVE to hit the exact same spot in your mouth every time in order to get an accurate/consistent reading. This is nearly impossible. 2 months ago I began taking my temp vaginally as I read it was the preferred method. Eureka! Consistent charts that have started to MAKE SENSE! If you haven't been doing this I highly recommend it. First thing in the morning, before you get out of bed, at the same time every day. I would expect you will start to see a MUCH more cohesive chart!
Oh - and if you start this mid cycle it might make your chart a bit wonky....but then again as you said it already is!
Best of luck & enjoy your vacation!