In other news I had my CD24 b/w done for my progesterone test last Thursday to tell if I O'd or not. I haven't gotten the results back yet, but I think something is definitely different this cycle. On the same day I had the b/w done I had some unusual spotting. It was bright red and mucousy. That was the only time there seemed to be a large amount of blood. For the next 2 days there was just the lightest spotting and then nothing. If I did O then I could actually start AF naturally for the first time in 5 years, but even if that was the case it was too early in the cycle for that and it is gone now so that wasn't it. It was probably nothing, but I have never ever had spotting when it wasn't the start of my cycle so I am just baffled and curious to see if I O'd or not.
I haven't really blogged since I came back from vacation, but that was because I have been down in the dumps. It doesn't help that I have had a headache for over a week, and I can't sleep because no matter how I lay my back hurts. Before I started on this journey I was always a very happy-go-lucky person who never saw the down side of anything. With all the hormonal changes I have been having I feel like I am going crazy and I can't seem to see the up side of anything anymore. I have decided that I don't like being this person anymore. It is starting to affect my marriage and I don't want that. I am going to make a more conscious effort to be more like the person I was so I am going to start by making a list of things that make me happy (in no particular order).
- laying in bed with my husband holding me
- when my cat lays in my lap for hours
- the dozens of ladybugs all over my porch this weekend (supposed to be lucky too)
- the sound of dry leaves crunching under my feet
- sleeping late
- a long hot bath
- a good book
- taking a nap
- kissing my niece
- getting a letter or card in the mail from a friend
- riding my horse
Practice hope. As hopefulness becomes a habit, you can achieve a permanently happy spirit. ~ Norman Vincent Peale